LifeisNoCheese 2:36 pm
what do you think is the most troubling aspect of being your age?
YEEEEEAAAAHH 2:38 pm
definitely the future
do i have to say why? hahahasfkjlkajsf
LifeisNoCheese 2:39 pm
probably haha this is the last one
YEEEEEAAAAHH 2:49 pm
WELL ever since maybe 8th grade, everybody's been looking forward to graduation. and now it's approaching and people are panicking because we aren't 100% ready and prepared. school won't be there anymore and we have to leave the environment that we've been in and the people that we've known for 7 years straight. and it's all those questions like "what am i going to do?" and worrying about if you will still stay friends with your friends if you end up doing different things. you have to actually start thinking for yourself and making decisions that will benefit your future

not really lulz but i wanted to make a post cause it's been a while
right now i'm sitting in digital design class and we have a substitute today, aka i am not participating in work today.
i have a shitty cold, it's probably swine flu. i drink airborne like it's my antidote to live. my eyes feel like hot puddles of water and my face feels like a punching bag. yesterday i told my mom to slap my face since it was so numb, and she actually did pretty hard and i didn't feel it.
i wish we had wednesday's off more often, i did nothing yesterday aside sit around and wait for the CMA's to start, but it was a good break in the middle of the week.
ACROSS THE ATLANTIC OCEAN in some places, they have this thing called "siesta time" and it's when they get to leave in the middle of work/school and go home and rest for an hour or two, then go back to work/school afterwards. the whole town is closed during siesta time and going outside during siesta time would be like going outside at 3am. this is what i learn in my psychology class
okay i have to go BYE

i'm so anxious jklasflkjasf
the grading website for school currently says i have a 59 F in science, and a 69 D in economics. and today was the last day for turning in any work. hopefully after the teachers grade my shit, i go up to a D and a C. a D still sucks, and a C isn't that great, but they aren't failing grades and that's all i need
shit i can't believe the first quarter of my senior year is already over
WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE COMES OUT TOMORROW. and i have no school tomorrow yay shit
hmm this weekend hmm this weekend
my friends want me to go to jacksonville, florida with them to see from first to last live on saturday, but i'm not feelin it. there's only two reasons i really would want to go: 
A. it would be like a mini road trip and road trips with friends sound appealing to me
B. ryan adams was born and raised in jacksonville, north carolina and writes songs about it, and i'd feel cool to say "i'm in jacksonville" even if it's the wrong one
it would be fun, seeing the band would be fun too. i just bleh. i don't know. I DON'T EVEN KNOW. i'm not that into them anymore
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taylor swift is going on a fearless re-launch in early 2010. she's covering 30 cities that she didn't go to on the original one
this includes: TAMPA, ORLANDO, AND SUNRISE FLORIDA
march 4th in tampa, and it's the first night of the tour in the US
i think tickets go on sale on october 23rd, hopefully there is a pre-sale. or a pre-pre-sale only open to people named jillian, cause every show on the 09 tour sold out within minutes which FREAKS ME OUT
omd i vow to get a license, car, and straight A's by then so that i can go to every florida date FUCK YEAH
not rly

holy farkin fudge
i know i shouldn't complain but my FUCKING IPOD has been such a bitch in the past month. first it was like "NO I WON'T SYNC ANYMORE" so i re-installed itunes and deleted my library and everything. then it was like "FUCK YOU I STILL WON'T SYNC" and then i found that if you do it manually, it will sync what you want. so i put a couple of songs on it and that's been going well. WELL last night i was like "i want the phantom of the opera soundtrack on my ipod because i'm a loser" so i put those on and then when i ejected the ipod and went to put the alarm clock on, there was no music on my ipod. so i plugged it back in and re-did my whole ipod library and dragged and shit and it was like "OKAY THE MUSIC'S BACK ON ME" and then i ejected it and looked at the ipod and it was like "FUCK YOU I WAS KIDDING"
so basically my ipod is a little fart and there is nothing on it, and i want to throw it off a building.
it would be somewhat bearable if i never used my ipod, but i need it for the shitty bus rides with the boys behind me screaming the whole time we're stuck in traffic for over half an hour every weekday, first period so i don't have to listen to assholes suck at playing guitar, my alarm clock to wake up for school, GAMING MUSIC WHILE I GAME, my music playing device for when i'm dancing alone in my living room, the music i listen to on my computer since itunes takes forever to load.
basically i use it all da time, but now it is a little shit. we called the company a couple weeks ago and they were like "hay we'll email you some shit so that you can send your ipod in" and i never got no dayum message
i just like to complain about SHIT

holy SHIIIIIIIT i can't wait to get out of school
i'm fearing the day i graduate because then it means i'm out of school and i'll be at the age where i need to actually do something with my life. but i can't wait to get out of here
i have 3 missing assignments and my mom won't stop nagging me about it, she just sent a letter to my science teacher, guidance counselor, and principal because of THREE MISSING ASSIGMENTS that i'm working on anyway
she stresses me out more than the fucking class itself does
fuck fuckitty fuck fuck
i'm so overwhelmed by this shit. i miss summer and being carefree. and it sucks because i feel that as i get older, it's just gonna get worse

TAKE A DEEP BREATH AS YOU WALK THROUGH THE DOORZS

"The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together."
- Erma Bombeck

well shit, i was excited for my older sister jane to come over because when she stays over, i don't feel like an only child anymore and i feel like i'm a younger sister again and that i'm a little 4 year old
she's staying for the weekend, but she said she'd basically only see me on friday which is GAY

so shit everyone always says senior year is the best, but it sucks and all of my teachers aside mr glover are stupid and won't tell you your grades or what you're missing if you ask them. the older you get, the less teachers give a shit about you. mr glover is my only friend. "my graduation gift from my parents was an airline ticket and a suitcase." he reminds me of a character from dazed and confused all grown up but still has cool stories to tell and teaches economics and makes fun of his students

when i get out of high HOLY SHIT i just typed "hirsch school" instead of high school at first. N E WAE when i get out of high school i wanna move into a college dorm but not go to classes. i just wanna live in a little dorm and work at steak n shake for the rest of my life

being a senior is weird, but i'm sure i'll get used to it soon. i realized i'm in the oldest age group in the school. if i think a boy is cute, he's either my age or younger hahah suckxckxs. the first 2 weeks have been pretty easy but i'm just ready for school to get over with. i'm tired of being here. days go by pretty quickly though because i have 7th period lunch, which means i can just leave after 6th period. i get pretty tired during 3rd period though and the teacher is a dumbass. i felt like the seniors last year actually looked like seniors, this year all the seniors look like middle schoolers. and i have a crush on a 15 year old. i can't wait to get out of here hahahah. three day weekend though woo
happy one day late birthday karen hastlings. i miss u. i have questions to ask you about disney IF YANNO WHAT I MEAN


i can't stop listening to this

i can't believe i'm starting my senior year in a couple of days
fffffuuuuuu what the hell i'm still 2 years old

i'm really grateful for everything that i have
and i love my mom hahaha


but taco night comes in at a close second

i feel stupid for ignoring livejournal as much as i do. i always forget how much fun my friends page is when i'm away from livejournal for too long
SO YEAH it's summer
i have 10 days of summer school for algebra 2, i've completed 3 days so far. the classes are on mondays-thursdays so it's cool. i'm actually learning this time around, and i have a 90% A so far
my cousin is getting married on the 27th so the past week has been my mom going insane about the fact that i need to buy clothes for the wedding. it made me realize how much i hate clothes hahaha and how much i hate shopping with my mom. every shirt that i pick out ends up not being formal enough. blouses are okay with me, but DAMN women's clothes hug my body too much. it's not that they don't fit, they just hug the body and it sucks. and the sleeves are half the size of the sleeves on shirts that i normally wear so my farmers tan is like "o hay everybody." AND my mom is making me wear pants. i'll find a pair that fits my fatass waist, but they go straight down and are baggy towards the bottom of my legs. i hate clothes. if i ever get married it's going to be at the caliente and i'm inviting paris and nicole
aside that, summer's been good. i went to a couple days of peer mediation training too. peer mediation is where you help students through conflicts they have with other students. when i signed up for it, i really had no clue what it was about, the guidance counselor said we'd be helping kids with their problems basically. but after the first 2 training classes for it i found it it's not as bad as i thought it was gonna be. but still awkward. i've been thinking about it and it's gonna be awkward as fuck. i'm gonna be alone in a room with two kids that i don't know who are "in a conflict" , and i'll be with another peer mediator my age, and we're gonna be helping these two kids through their problem. oh well, at least i'm doing a school activity or some shit, i figured it would make maaawww proud

bah i feel live i've typed too much. and it's all shinfo hahaha
sorry guise